One thing I struggle with the most

I went to a mega church today in Cincinnati, and surprisingly I was intrigued with both the message and the tons of people/soda/and coffee, all of which was for free. The guy who gave the sermon talked about walking with the Spirit and what that means. There was a point in the sermon where he lead us in individual prayer. He prompted us to close our eyes and think about the Spirit as we get up in the mornings, as we go to work, as we get home, and in all that we do. But before we even started all of this he said something I haven't heard before. He said when we pray it's ok for your mind to wonder—sometimes that's just the Spirit leading you to thoughts you should think about. And maybe he had a point. As I prayed and thought through my routine of a day, one thing kept coming back into my head. Worry. I'm not saying all the time, but a lot of the time, I live my life for tomorrow. I look forward to or worry about what's coming tomorrow, or next week, or come May. As I sat in that dark auditorium, I started to think about my future yes, but about today more than anything. What good is a future, if you're not living for today.

One thing people always say about working here is that these kids and this culture knows how to do just that—live in the moment. God doesn't call us to worry. In fact, Francis Chan will be forever engrained in my mind when he said that worrying just says to God that I think I'm bigger than Him—that I think I can handle, and have the power to affect things in my life. But that's just it, I'm don't. No matter how hard I try to control things, or no matter how hard I worry, nothing stops. Time keeps going and God keeps working.

I didn't really come to any conclusions sitting in that auditorium today, but it did make me think. God's pushing me to let go. To let Him do His thing. He's pushing me to live in the here and now and to leave everything else up to Him. Even writing this is hard for me to take in, but I know that my mind didn't wonder on purpose this morning.

Matthew 6:30—But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown in the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? Therefore do not be anxious...